Without
saying a word, Lucas put the car in gear and cautiously drove around the trees
heading in what I hoped, was the direction of the highway. Looking out through
the plastic windows at the back of the jeep, my thoughts wandered as I watched the
trees pass by.
I had spent an entire night with both
these boys, and was still no closer to finding out who they were or any closer
to understanding their involvement with me or my gramps.
My
thoughts flicked back to earlier and the conversation I overheard. Trying to put the puzzle together with so
many pieces missing was difficult, but not impossible. From what I’d gathered,
my gramps asked Daniel out here to Troian with the sole purpose of following
me, to keep me safe.
But why? Gramps thought me how to protect and defend
myself. What was he involved in that was so dangerous that he
felt merited a bodyguard? And what did Daniel mean when he said I didn’t
exist, that I was a secret?
I asked
myself question after question, wrapped up in my own thoughts I almost missed
Lucas’ question.
“Excuse
me?” I asked him, coming back to the present.
With a
quick glance in my direction before looking back to the dirt trail, we’d now
began to follow he said “I asked, why your house? What is it that you have to
do?”
“Gramps
gave me specific instructions, things he made me promise to do in case of
his………passing.” I answered looking up and
meeting Daniel’s intent gaze in the rearview mirror.
“Things
like what?” Daniel asked.
Holding
his hard gaze, I recalled aloud the things gramps had me memorize since I was old enough to understand what he was asking of me.
“He
said, when he was…gone, he was gone. Not to come back for him, I mean……..his
body.” I whispered as I took in a staggered breath, “And to-” I began again but
was abruptly cut off.
“It’s
okay, October.” Lucas said glaring daggers at Daniel as he took his eyes off
the road “You don’t have to tell us if you don’t want to.”
Taking
a shaky breath I looked straight ahead and watched as the Troian main highway
came into view as Lucas took us into the midday traffic heading south. I was
about to tell Lucas, to take the next turn off that led to the outskirts of the
city, when Daniel stole the words from me.
“Take
the next right and just follow the road from there.” Daniel said to him.
Before
I had time to be startled by the fact that Daniel, who was basically a
stranger, was giving directions to my house, I remembered that he was the one
who pulled me out of the fire and who had been apparently following me for the
last couple of days.
Of course he knew where I lived.
Of course he knew where I lived.
I
thought. Not saying a word as he continued to give Lucas directions, we turned
into my street.
“Pull
over here.” Daniel instructed Lucas as we broke the corner into Rosen Street.
“Why
are we stopping here? My house is at the bottom of the street.” I said to them both,
leaning forward between the front seats as they began unbuckling their
seatbelts.
“Just
being cautious” Lucas answered, opening his door and stepping out, allowing me
to do the same.
“Cautious?
About what?” I asked as I stood beside him, watching as Daniel handed him the
duffel he fished out the back.
“Let’s
just get this over with.” I heard Daniel growl as he shouldered his way past us to
cross the street, not waiting for Lucas or me to follow.
“What
the hell is his problem?” I asked in frustration looking over at Daniel,
watching as his long legs made short work of the distance to my house.
Heaving
a heavy sigh, “He has…….issues.” Lucas answered, throwing his duffel over his
shoulder again as we walked down towards my house or what was left of it.
Standing
there, staring at the decrepit and burnt structure, now cornered off by yellow
caution tape, it was hard to believe this was the same place I called home. That I’d
laughed and lived for so many years under the now non-existent roof as the
entire second story was gone, leaving behind only a few blackened remnants.
Clenching
my hand in a tight fist, my short nails digging into my palm as a mental reminder
to keep it together, I ducked under the police tape, crossing the small lawn to
the huge opening on the left side of the house. I barely noticed the boys as they
followed me in, stepping over pieces of my home as we entered. Pieces that were
either burnt beyond recognition from the fire or dripping and water logged from
the firefighters efforts.
Looking
around from corner to corner in a feeble attempt to get some kind of bearings,
I began walking down what used to be a narrow hallway where off white walls
once stood. Carefully making my way through fallen and seared fragments of my
home, I slowly found my way to my grandfather’s study.
As twilight approached, its faint sunlight spilled in from every direction,
illuminating the room as it lay in ruins.
Where
my gramp's wide old, oak desk once stood, ash and debris now took its place in the
middle of the floor surrounded by the charred walls of books he cherished so
much.
When I
was younger and couldn’t sleep or when the nightmares would keep me awake at
night, gramps would let me choose a book from his array of classics. Reading to
me until I fell asleep with thoughts of great white whales and princesses no
bigger than my thumb.
Stifling the memory for now, I walked over to
the remains of the desk as both boys ambled into the room behind me. Kneeling,
I began digging through the rubble with my bare hands, pushing away as much as
I could. Hands black and covered with sot, I brushed back the fallen strands of
my hair from my forehead, finally reaching the wooden floor boards that covered
the entire floor of the study.
Gazing down
at the small door of the black safe hidden beneath the floor of my
grandfather’s study, just as unscathed as it was 12 years ago, when my gramps
first showed it to me. Laying my hand on the cool metal, I sighed in relief.
Knowing that the safe was practically indestructible didn’t seem real until I saw
it for myself.
“Tobi, if anything should happen to me,
anything at all, you make sure, no matter what, that you find your way back here. That you keep what you find in there safe and with you at all
times!” my grandfather said to me as he showed me his safe beneath the floor of
his study for the first time, only a few days before my 7th
birthday.
I was
young but mature enough to understand the seriousness of his tone as he spoke, that
I shouldn’t ask questions but instead listen.
“Now, you remember the code I told you?” he asked,
his voice gentling.
Nodding a yes, I continued to answer “It’s
my birthday.”
“And when’s your birthday?” he asked,
that same softness in his voice as he let go of my hand and turned, stooping
down in front of me so we were eye level.
“October
1st 1993.” We both said in unison. A broad smile stretched across my gramps face,
the kind that touched his eyes and made them crinkle at the corners. Touching his
face, I smiled back at him happy that I’d made him proud.
Smiling
to myself as the memory played in my head, I looked down at the small keypad.
Entering the seven digit code, I wrapped my hand around the short shiny handle
and turned. I didn’t realize I was holding my breath until I heard the click of
the safe door opening.